Location | Taipei

Today I had my first class. The teacher kind of taught the class as if we were second graders. It was a complete flashback to first year Chinese school… I hope it gets better…

Anyway, I went to try out the Taiwanese II class, but I ran out, because well, while I can understand Taiwanese, it takes me A LOT longer to speak Taiwanese… and most of the people in the class had a grip as to how to speak Taiwanese… so I thought, this is definately not the class for me.

I went out for brunch with this grad student at U of M’s mom. She’s really nice, but I think she is trying to hard to “be my friend.” Hehehe.. I dunno, everyone here is just trying to be helpful, but sometimes it is just scary. She doesn’t need to buy me anything! LOL… she kept on wanting to buy me stuff… it’s ok it’s ok… LOL.

Oh, in a few days I get to go to the largest bookstore in Eastern Asia: Page One. It’s inside the Taipei 101 mall… and Taipei 101 is the tallest building in the world (as of date). I’M SO EXCITED TO GO TO THAT BUILDING!!! Plus they have tons of books in English, so woohoo!

I bought another book on “Cultural Taipei.” It’s really interesting and there are lots of pictures. It was only $4.50, so if you’re in Taipei, I suggest you buy it, it’s a good buy.

I think my cousin also said that she’s going to take me to a hot springs sometime in the future, so I’m kind of excited about that. Also we’re going to a street that specializes in electronics so I can buy a cheap mp3 player and webcam! YAY! Lots of things to do. Tomorrow I’m going to go to The Taipei World Trade Center to visit my cousin at the International Compudex Show. Yay for all new computer technology!

Ok, so I’m starting to enjoy Taiwan a lot more… only because when you have people willing to go with you place, it’s a lot more interesting.

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Weather | Taipei

I’ve spent the whole day at Shi-Da. This is my day. This is my life. I haven’t made any friends yet though I have talked to several people. One person was this old guy (he looked around 40) from Malaysia. I was actually quite scared of talking to him. I kind of ran away when the conversation winded down. Then I went and got lunch because I had been starving for 2 hours but I wasn’t willing to just GO and get food. I had to be an stubborn ass and sit on the 7th floor of the Mandarin Language Center and read everything that I could get around to reading… of course I was bored out of my mind.

My classes start tomorrow, they are from 2:10pm-4pm. I am also going to sit in on a culture class for Taiwanese level 2 — just to see how it’s like. I’ll probably understand the Taiwanese pretty well, but oh well, it gives me something to do tomorrow.

Yesterday I was definitely out of my mind to go on crying like that. At least I was saved by my “aunt” Chiaying. Today I’m being saved by my cousins Agnes and Jack. Whew. This eating meals alone business is quite scary. I just went to a bakery and grabbed a sandwich for lunch and then went over to 7-11 to get something to drink. Perhaps I will try other foods soon, but I am still not feeling too “brave” to venture out into the city alone… and anyway it was raining like crazy when I went out to get food and my sandals got complete soaked… and they still are… no matter how long I’ve had them out to dry, they haven’t dried yet. Craaaap!

I’m in the Shi-da library now just using the computers up in the front. I have nothing better to do so I might as well sit here and just use the computers. It’s actually quite nice. It’s air conditioned in here. I can bring my laptop too since they have wireless access. Yay for wireless.

If I can at least make like 1 or 2 friends here to just hang out with all the time I think I will be able to survive the life here. It’s really quite boring when you don’t have anyone to talk to. My cousins and aunt are all working, so I can’t hang out with them… Too bad I can’t get a job, because that’d be EXCELLENT.

Maybe I can convince Chiaying’s boss to let me just do menial work at her workplace. I really have nothing else to do… then again my class is in the middle of the day so I can’t exactly go off to Chiaying’s to work… maybe for the morning to lunch time. OMG… I am so weird… working for free really isn’t my style.

I really need to find an english bookstore. Tomorrow I am supposed to venture out to Computex at the Taipei World Trade Center to visit Chiaying. It’s supposed to be an international information technology show for people who import and export. It’s not open to the public, but Chiaying said she can get me in on a working pass or something. I think that’s totally awesome since I love computer shows and since it’s supposed to be all new tech stuff, I’m super excited!

Oh, last night my roommate didn’t come back which I thought was super weird… I slept the whole time and she never came back… I woke up around 4:30am because I was sweating like crazy… It was just too warm inside the room even though I had the air conditioner going. I think somehow the temperature adjusted, since when I went to sleep it was freezing COLD.

FINALLY, they turned off the stupid piano that was playing classical music. I love classical music and all, but that piano was super annoying…

I also got my books for my class tomorrow. The readings are relatively easy but there are still words that I don’t know. I think I need to go out and by memorization cards. Hmm… seriously, somehow I managed to stay at the Shi-Da area since around 9am this morning. It’s about 5:38pm here right now. So I’ve been here for around 8.5 hours. WOW… I managed to waste my day. I need to go buy some books to read or I will go insane. Perhaps I will download some more digital books into my pda so I can read them randomly. Anyone recommend any good “classic” novels (since those are usually the ebooks that are free). Maybe I should PURCHASE some ebooks… erm no. I prefer the hardcopy stuff over the digital stuff. Even though I am a digital maniac.

I’ve written a lot today haven’t I? I guess it’s since I don’t have much to do so I get to ramble on about the random things that come to my head. Well this is why I also have a blogger and livejournal too. Plus I post on Forumosa.com and other random places. I don’t know if I should move out of the I-House and try to find an apartment. I want to live in a place of my own, but then it’s super hard to find a place for only 3 months and even if I move out after my one month that I paid for at I-House it’d be even harder to find a place for 2 months. Maybe someone would be willing to host me! 😀

Anyway, I still have like 20 minutes until my cousin comes to get me, so perhaps I will write an entry in livejournal or something.

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Location | Taipei

Anxiety attack over. I called my cousin and I’m going to for dinner with her. I guess I’m just a freak to be so scared of being here. I’m just so weird in general. From now on, if I go somewhere far away (aka in another country) I’m definitely going to a city where I know at least one person (and they have to be close by… not as far as my cousin is… wtf she lives like 30-1hour away by subway!!!)

Ok. Yes. I’m good.

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Location | Taipei

This is it. I’m having an anxiety attack. Complete and utter failure I am. I’m crying my little heart out for the first time ever because I’m all alone. I just feel so helpless right now. Every time I’ve gone someplace new I always had someone with me that I knew, and now, I have no one. I feel so lonely and sick. I feel terrible. There’s nothing for me to do but cry and that’s all I’m doing.

I’m scared out of my mind. I’m not the one who goes adventuring off alone. This is why I didn’t go far away from home for college. It’s so weird that I can’t stop crying. All I know is that I don’t want to go to Japan to study anymore. I just want to stay home. Stay home for the rest of my life. That’s all.

I feel so bad for crying my guts out. Seriously. I just can’t control my feelings right now. I don’t know what I’m going to do. Sure I’m independent and cut off for the most part now, but I really can’t stand this fact. I just want to be home where I’m most comfortable. I’ve only been here for about 2 hours and I already want to go home. Can you believe me? I really can’t believe it.

Ok, I’m just blubbering, I have no idea what is wrong. I feel very insecure and ripped apart. Its not a very nice feeling at all.

I don’t want to be left alone. I was watching this movie and in it there was this guy who traveled all alone and he had no one because his family had all passed away and even his wife had passed away. I don’t think I coud take being left alone like that. I can only be human and need people to be around me all the time. Frankly I just miss everyone back at home. I miss everyone like crazy.

I just can’t handle it. I kept talking about Taiwan this and Taiwan that, except I was just really afraid of it all. I don’t even want to be here anymore. I wanted to be here for like a day and then since then I’ve just wanted to go home. What is wrong with me!? I’m so messed up.

I guess I just don’t like being here.

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Location | Taichung

Yesterday I went with my mom to Taipei to check out the area around Shi Da University (aka National Taiwan Normal University). We took the train from Taichung and rode 2.5 hours north to Taipei, then we got on the MRT (subway) and rode to the Guting stop. We went over to Shi Da to see if there was any housing for rent on the bulletin board, and found one… but we went to see the room and it was TINY… like the size of my closet in the dorm at Martha Cook. Plus it smelled kind of bad… so we’re gonna avoid that place. Hopefully I can get a single room asap at the I-House.

Anyway, I finally got my cell phone here.. it’s my aunt’s, but she’s letting me use it. It’s so cute! I want to keep it! Too bad I can’t though… perhaps I will steal it :D.

My allergies are getting better. I wanna go shoe shopping soon… shoes here are like $15 for really cute shoes. La di da. I still want to get an MP3 player and a webcam. Those will come later.

So, my grandma’s dog pees EVERYWHERE… in the morning when I walk out of the 4th floor door theres dog pee outside the door and on the stairs… and the dog just plays innocent! Luckily the cleaning lady is coming today to clean everything up. Yaaay for no more doggie pee! It’s really warm here… eee! Luckily I-House has air conditioning.

Oh, I had McDonalds here yesterday and it was AWFUL. OOOOHHH~! I just found out what kind of dog Kudi (my grandma’s dog) is! It’s a Maltese! AHAHHAHA!! All this while I was thinking either bischon frise or poodle… LOL!! Oh, well now I know.

Well, I’m out (at least for this entry)

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